This morning as I spent some time in devotion, I closed my eyes and let myself get lost in the beauty of the instrumental, as well as the words of this gorgeous song – New Wine, by Hillsong Worship.
Wow! Just Wow!
Do you know this song? My church sings this song frequently so I know the words, but this morning they touched me to my soul.
In reflection, my whole life I have struggled with fear of failure and fear of rejection, mostly because of the dysfunctional pattern and deep hurts of my growing up years. Maybe you have struggled with some of these too? Well, over the years I learned – by doing OVER and OVER, until I FINALLY did it – to lay down these #lifehurts that kept me tied up in knots and afraid. And last year I finally laid down the 20-yr old #deepgrief of losing my beautiful son when he was just 9 yrs old. My heart is renewed!
So now, with the beginning of 2019, after much prayer, my spiritual #WordfortheYear is Courage. Courage! Me? Little #MuchAfraid? (If you are not familiar with the character, Much Afraid, you might want to check out the soul-stirring book, Hinds’ Feet on High Places, by Hannah Hurnard). Oh boy!
So, this morning, in reflecting on this new #courage, along with this gorgeous song, this Verse also hits me hard:
No one pours new wine into old wineskins. Otherwise, the new wine will burst the skins; the wine will run out and the wineskins will be ruined. No, new wine must be poured into new wineskins. Luke 5:37-38
Woah! Did you get that?
Wow! I FINALLY did! What I finally get now is this: In the crushing, in the pressing of each #lifehurt I endured, as Jesus loved me through each one, he was making New Wine in me. And as an adult, as I laid down each crushing, breaking #lifehurt at the alter, Jesus fashioned a piece of my new wineskin out of each hurt. And as I finally laid down my last deep #lifehurt – my #deepgrief – my new wineskin was complete and ready for filling up with all that New Wine!
Whew! Oh! My! Goodness!
Now, with my spiritual new #WordfortheYear, Courage, I realize it’s time, yes, it’s time to pour myself OUT of my old wineskin and right INTO my new wineskin! Woohoo! And oh yes, it’s also time to embrace my true treasure, *Matt 6:19-20, which is helping women find healing from their lifetime of hurts. For me, this specifically means finishing my book #LayItAllDown, putting myself out there and getting it published! Do you know what YOUR true treasure is? Are you embracing it?
Oh my Goodness, YES! This is so exciting!
2019 is the year that I fully embrace being whole, complete, and courageously new!
I am NEW WINE and I live in a NEW WINESKIN!
Jesus, make me Your vessel, make me an offering, make me whatever You want me to be! Jesus, bring new wine out of me!
Dear Reader, how about you – are you still living in your old wineskin? Do you have life hurts you want/need to lay down so they won’t hurt you any more? Are you still wandering through the desperate journey of deep grief and don’t know how to climb up out of it? Whatever it is that might be hurting you, holding you back, I implore you to take it up with your Heavenly Father, who loves you to distraction, who wants BETTER for you. He is just waiting for you to come to Him, with ALL your heart, telling Him what you need. He already knows what you need and is just waiting to help you – He just wants to hear it from you. Beloved, He will help you through it. I know He will, because He lovingly carried me through all of mine.
I’d love to pray for you too if you’d like to leave a comment and I will lift you up to our Heavenly Father, our Jehovah Jireh, our Provider, asking Him to help you, to give you courage and strength and to see you through as He, our Jehovah Raphe, our Healer God, draws you into healing and your new wineskin! He can and He will if you will just ask Him.
Isaiah 41:10 Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be afraid, for I am your God. I will strengthen you; I will help you; I will hold on to you with my righteous right hand.
Jeremiah 29:13 You will seek me and find me when you search for me with all your heart.
*Matthew 6:19-20 NASB“Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. 20 But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys, and where thieves do not break in or steal;
Love deep from my heart,