Pour Over Me

My #1 goal as a Christian today, is to become more like Jesus and to exemplify his characteristics in my daily living. Do you identify with this goal? Well, in striving for this, that means we have to let loose of the characteristics or desires in our hearts that don’t match up with his. Easy to say but oh-so-hard to do? Yes, for sure. And some things are more difficult than others to let go, such as that oh-it’s-so-bad TV show? Ha!

And then there are the things we don’t WANT to let go, such as that super destructive relationship we keep hanging on to, or for me, my terrible vanity! Or overindulging in food or drink. For me, this means sweets!

And then there are the things we let go over and over again, but somehow keep picking right back up. Like the hurt we feel over something someone said or did. Verbally. Emotionally. Physically. These are so hard to let go of, aren’t they?

This morning, as I stand in front of the mirror feeding my out-of-control vanity (ugh!), singing along with my christian music playlist, Lauren Daigle’s song, “Once And For All” catches me off-guard and then hits home – hard. As I pause and listen to the words, I close my eyes and let the words pour over me.

God I give You all I can today
These scattered ashes that I hid away
I lay them all at Your feet

From the corners of my deepest shame
The empty places where I’ve worn Your name
Show me the love I say I believe

Oh Help me to lay it down
Oh Lord I lay it down

My heart begins it’s own playlist of all the hurts I hold and the intentions I held of letting them go. And then I feel that love, the love I say I believe in, pour over me. I feel the warmth, I feel the peace flow through me.

Be lifted high as my Kingdom’s fall
Once and for all, once and for all

There is victory in my Saviors loss
And In the crimson flowing from the cross
Pour over me, pour over me yes

I am renewed with hope. And the courage to let go. And victory in the belief that as I let go of those Mindy-made kingdoms and all those burned out ashes of hurt and disappointment that God doesn’t wish for me, and as I honor God, I will be renewed. I will be better. I will be closer to whole.

Oh let this be where I die
My lord with thee crucified
Be lifted high as my Kingdom’s fall
Once and for all, once and for all

So, I lay it down, Lord. I lay it all down, once and for all, I lay it all down.

Oh Lord I lay it down
Oh Lord I lay it down
Help me to lay it down
Oh Lord I lay it down

And I laid it down.

Oh, Beloved One, what is it in your heart that you need to lay down? Do you know that God is right there, waiting for you to reach out to him, to pour his healing love over you as you let go?

Psalm 55:22, “Cast your burden upon the Lord and He will sustain you; He will never allow the righteous to [b]be shaken.”

So, God’s Beloved One, cast your burden upon the Lord, lay your hurt, disappointment, guilty pleasure, whatever your kingdom is that you need to let fall, lay it down at Jesus’ feet. Ask God, our Heavenly Father, who knows you and loves you better than anyone else, to take it from you. And then let it go. Believe in his perfect love and the crimson at the cross, and let it pour over you, and let the hurt go. God did not intend for you to live in that hurt. Let the kingdom fall. Let the kingdom fall, Beloved, you do not need it.

1 Peter 5:7, “casting all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you.”